Blood work and all the feels

It’s that time again….

Tomorrow morning I go for my blood work. It’s been 84 days since my last one, the one where my iron levels took a turn and went from going down to rising.

Those results derailed me, so going into tomorrow my anxiety is showing up. Lately, I have let my anxiety shut me down and caused me to avoid things. I comfortably fell back into masking.

I can find it very challenging to notice when my anxiety creeps in but today I noticed my ectopic heartbeat happening more often, my mind a little bit louder and a strong pull to lose myself in distractions.

I just keep reminding myself that my feelings are valid, to not hide them or run from them, to sit with them regardless of how uncomfortable I feel, that I’m doing everything I can and regardless of tomorrow’s results I have an amazing team of doctors making sure that I’m okay.

Thank you for being here 💕